i am broke, bored, lonely and useless….. (T_T)…………………

One fine day, when i was talking to my boss and suddenly he ask me a question, “So, how r u doin there?” I jus replied back one word, “Bored…” Then, he quicly reply, “Oki do not worry, i will find ways to bring u backto kl..”
And at tat moment, i felt so relieve and happy lol. . Is reli getting bored here and worsen still, i jus had my P last nite, so reli feel down at all level now.. Cant wait to back kl and is so near to melaka lol.. Pls god, find me a person tat gonna replace me… Faster.. Muaksss………

Before i start my word, let me congrats Friendster for their newly look for the blog section.. It amazed me though.. Look modern and make me feel bluesss.. Guess blog is the next closet ting to me now.. Well, lately i was thinking a lot about future and my work.. Though i can’t confirm anything yet now, its still un-tell-able.. Dun worry if it is working out, i will write it in my next blog.. I dun noe whether i shall wait (dunno till when…) or to proceed.. It is again another decision in life..

P/s: Great, i cant find d link wher i can save and post my blog….

Life now is not like our fairytale story, Peterpan and his Neverland.. We gotta alwiz move forward, whether we willing to do it or not is another matter.. Adult, being a machine producing money is jus the life now.. No work, no money.. When no money, ur life will be at the most miserable state.. Previously, uni life is about study and exams.. Although there is stress sometime with study, however, working stress is jus undeniable.. Can’t put it in words though.. Perhaps, i am far away from family and friends, so felt d tension more.. When i was here the first week, working is all i have in mind.. Thus, at the end of the day, it results stress in me.. Therefore, as time passes by, i try to learn to be more calm to myself.. Sometime, working is not like doin report or assignment.. It not goin to be like, if u done ur assignment fast, u can proceed with another assignment and hav plenty of time for other tings in the life.. Work, however, is an never ending "assignment" (u will never finish it no matter how fast u do it…..) and it gonna be the same "assignment" for the rest of ur life, unless u quit the job (duh…… not yet in my list though) The difference is, u earn money with this "assignment" (well, the one and only reason ppl work..) Dont worry, i am not as tension as i wrote in here, i am taking my time to adjust wit this situation, am a big big gal now.. Muakss.. Miss u guys yea..

The days have passed since our convocation, though i still can rmb d happiness, laughter, hug-ess, almost coming out tears (nice sweet songs..) and our memorable time.. I’m so looking forward for our next meeting guys.. We have a relax time, sitting there while munching our food, jus like good old days yea.. Now, is all back to reality where money matters.. Working life.. Oh, i don’t wanna talk bout work first, back to convo.. Thanks my parents for the cute bear, my siblings for their bear bear surrounded with flowers, PA for her lovely daisy (i guess.. hehe), and Ewey for d cute toy and WW for her well done cheese cake (open a bakery shop la..).. I will upload those cute pics some of these days yea.. Everything was so intense in the convo hall, everyone felt the tension.. The must not happen moment, falling in front of all the parents, fellow honourable lecturer and prof, and us, the graduants.. Hehe.. When my name was called, i heard nothing else but my foot steps towards the Dato’ (forget his name.. as usual..is a finance minister) and says "THANK YOU" to him, smile to the camera (so many, dunno which to lookout for..) and gracefully walked down the stage.. In that moment, time seems to stop and me with my blanked mind walk throughout the stage.. Blurr.. hehe.. cant blame, first time and perhaps once in a life time moment (noy planning to take master..) Den it was a havoc walking outside the hall.. I was lost in the middle of all the human beings like me (with our robe.. so huge..), walking without direction (cant c d door as well..).. Den there was my dad holding flowers and mum holding a bear bear for me.. Haha, it was nice feeling huh, "I’m graduated now!" But now, think back, would rather spend time again in Uni, wif frens, hassle free (not 100%, but still….).. PA, thanks for sponsoring my small bro a lovely chocolate, from ur flower.. I have o stop here now as need to meet up client.. Gambateh!! Muakss ^.^

So glad that next week will be convo ledi lo.. Can meet up wif frens and hang out like our time in uni lo… I wanna go shop shop at KL ledi, both heels gone after walkin intensively for 2 month onli! Or perhaps it spoilt cuz my ganas walking stail.. Hehehe.. ^.^.. Luckily now shoppin in KL got sales o.. else pk pk..

Dear bloggie, another chapter in my life… Lately, i am so not liking the newspaper cuz is alwiz will be about tiss ‘fella’ and the other ‘fella’.. I think since the day i stat my job untill now d issue never resolve.. I am wondering are they trying to get media attention or else, jus pls after resolving it only tell us the final result.. It’s a lot tiring reading/ following up the case.. My RM1.20 alwiz wasted to have that kind of covering (for pages….) I would like something new and knowledgable for everyone to read, deliver us a better news.. Politics been very upsetting in this few months.. Polictis, to me is like a stage, where everyone is wearing a mask in order to play their role.. But too bad, tis role play is ‘too long’ tis time, and audience is getting reli bored and fed up wif it.. The actor is is not playing their role as good as the audience expected also.. I reli hope our politicians will be back like the old days, doin their job as expected and not day by day stirring up with news that we never thought of.. Making us blurr and less confidence on them.. C’mon wake up..

Back to me, i am still in the ‘flu’ war.. Tis is so not fun.. I can felt my nose is comin out soon.. Been reli tiring last two days, company was having a booth at one of the shoppin mall.. Need to be there the whole two days.. Now my shoulder is acking due to carrying lots of stuff.. My worst flu was yesterday, hardly can breath at some time, cuz sneezing too much at a time.. I dunno why i easily fall sick tis month, perhaps is not a lucky month for me though.. Yea, there is one incident when i was crossing road at a zebra line.. This kind hearted man stopped his car for me (altho it was meant for me to walk..) so tat i can cross the road.. But poor him, his car was bang by a motor and causes his backlight (right side) broken (into pieces).. I felt guilty cuz i am d main reason why he stopped.. So i stood by the side of the road and say sorry to the driver.. The man say, its oki, its not my fault… I noe la, but partly the accident happend cuz of me also loo..So, i gave him my card if there is anything i can do (eg as witness in police report).. Den he settle the accident with the young motor man..Next time will cross when no car.. till here for now.. gotta work as usual.. muakkss.. miss u oo..

Expecting that work require me to travel around is not a big deal, though i have forgotten i might be not as bodily tough in land den in sea water.. Okie, no one expect me to have car sickness, me myself though, since the fact that i nv hav a seasick before.. Pahang however, nv a good place for me to be d car passenger.. I vomitted twice in this 2 months lol.. Once is on my way to Kuantan and 2nd is meeting client.. Well, luckily i am alright if i am d driver, guess having to focus on d driving make me forget about vomitting.. So, i would prefer not to sit behind, neither beside the driver is not a good options as well.. But, tis melaka gal still fresh in Pahang area, thus others like my uncle, kind enuf to drive me to show me d road, and in return, i vomit (luckily not in his car, i added some nutrition for d flowers though….) And, OMG u shud jus c with ur own eyes, d winding road, okie thinking of it now also making me a bit dizzy ledi.. Those road are like snake and plus, thanks to my uncle ’super’ driving skill, i couldn’t afford to open my eyes despite that i am vision-less without my spec, i could feel myself hanging in the air and tings stucking at my throat.. OOhh, and lucky lucky i am OK when driving.. Else, i might as well work in the sea, or office..Hehe, but I am so not goin to let tis ‘vomitting’ kill the spirit of working yet, i am still not done! Yea..Tats d spirit gal.. I reli gotta motivate my self everyday to get to work and find client.. Motivation is reli reli important when u are working alone, by ur self, with no one to guard watever u are doin.. Freedom is alwiz in my fingertips, but i have to convert it into work and work or else i will diverge into laziness.. Sometime, having ur boss around is good as they will make sure u move ur ass aroun, tis is something i miss.. With no one to instruct and look at me (my ass.. hahaha..), i gotta move it myself though.. Well, tis is wat they called as "independent".. I dun noe whether izit my body cant take d pressure i am having rite now,working & driving & talking.. the whole ting is about work rite now.. I have seem to dedicate myself to it.. I have mentioned before having a yoga class, thinking back now, dun think have time to spare for it.. If have also it would be sleeping.. Well, for the past two days i was not so well, tis flu ting jus wouldnt go away.. Panadol aint working.. I obviously rested well ledi, but still.. So i think it might be my mental not so well causing the whole body system down, body down, means work down cuz when i am not feeling well i do not feel like talking to client with red nose and watery eyes, plus d sexy voice.. Guess, i reli need to enroll for yoga for a peace of mind.. Relax…….  OM…… C’mon gal… Muakss… Miss u guys!

In life, there’s many decisions we human gotta make.. At times, we come across hard decisions and at time decisions that we will never wan to face it.. Life gonna be simple if we make it simple, though, everyone wan a simple life, not everyone will have it that way…… Nevertheless, not making a decision will make u hanging there, never move, alwiz at the same pace… So, is hard to do a decision but simple if u done it, depends if it will be better or perhaps the worst… Even to make a decision is actually easy, but to cope with the decision we had make is another matter.. So, nothing is simple at the end of the day..

p/s: if i make d readers blurr, pls forgive me as i also dunno wat i am talkin about.. muakss…

Hope days would pass by fast den can attend d convo lo.. Hehe.. Then i can c my frens again and chat with them.. So bored here without any frens to hang out during weekend..Though on the other hand it is good for my work cuz i can go to work on weekend, but all work and no play is the new ‘me’ now.. In Kuantan, dinner is my fearest moment, cuz my uncle and aunt would stuff me wif lotz and lotz of food.. Hehe.. So, d though of dinner is haunting me.. Well, d onli frens i noe here besides my uncle family is doc and nurse, as well as my client. They are all married, so everyone back straight home after work with their respective family, and me back to uncle house, waiting for dinner though.. The beaches here is reli nice o, but again, goin there alone at nite would means calling for danger.. So, tv was my last resort o, watching dramas.. I will gotta buy some dvd and songs soon.. Den next strategies is find some activities at nite.. Was thinkin enrolling for tai chi or yoga.. Considering still.. Perhaps wil stat next month.. Yoga seem to suit my ages though, not to say tai chi is for older ppl.. hehe.. D better options if they have any jujitsu or aikido classes here ^.^.. Well, i am asking and looking aroun, seems quite little martial arts classes over here.. Hope to get any of this classes to get fit, socialization and diminish my loneliness.. Hehehe……… This is my next target.. Yea yea, gambate!! ^.^..

P/s: To my frens, hope u guys are in great and happy condition.. Gambate for our new phase in life.. Muakss!!